Hey guys! I hope everyone's doing well. Every now and then, Pastor Jeremy Foster introduces a series that I just couldn't be more excited about. Most recently, Under Pressure and Love, Sex, and Marriage had me taking notes and sharing like crazy. As much as I learned from those two, the newest series, Dream Again, is one that I am especially excited about. If I'm not careful, I'll end up writing a novel, but in short, the title alone froze me in my tracks.
I haven't vlogged in a really, really long time. Part of that has to do with drastic changes in my lifestyle, the ease of periscope, but more so, I'd say it has to do with the space I'm in. It's safe to say, that anytime I'm writing over video, it's because I'm working through some things, and writing always seems to be a solution. I'm a sponge right now, which can be a good thing, but It can also be a bad thing, and my main goal has been to find my center, get organized and move forward with clarity of purpose.
That expression, Dream Again, taps into every area I either hadn't realized I'd given up on, or didn't quite know how to articulate:
-Doubts about how I could actually create and support the lifestyle I've been believing for. One where I can comfortably work and live from whichever city I please at any point in time.
-Questioning whether or not the man I've been believing for could actually exist, and that perhaps if I just maybe lower my standards just a bit. I might find the more "realistic" version of that guy.
-Doubts about my consulting rate. That maybe it would be best to just play it "safe", build up my clientele, and grow from there.
-Doubts about actually finding a way to be compensated for the work I do with Mia's Closet, so that I can devote more time to creating unforgettable experiences for our kids.
The list goes on... but all of these doubts amount to settling for less than God's best.
Today, I hit the reset button. There was verse in particular that stopped me in my tracks:
10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. - John 10:10
Pastor Jeremy then went on to say, "If God can do more than you can imagine, why aren't you imagining bigger?"
I've heard a constant theme over the last few years, and it makes perfect sense. If a goal/dream/vision is perfectly tangible, why would we need God to convene? More importantly, how would it be a test of our faith?
I am the queen of tangibles. I like to have control. I like to know the plan. I like to be able to choose whether or not to act on the plan haha Which means I'm somewhere along the lines of a militant butterfly, but the key is that I like to know, and for the first time, in a really long time, if ever, I asked God to show me if the dreams I've been believing for aren't the dreams He has for me.
Clarity of purpose is all I'm asking for at this point because, "When your dream is dead, God's dream can live, and when you're living for him, it doesn't matter what's happening in your life." -Jeremy Foster.
That's not to say that my dreams are invalid, but it puts me in position to release the reigns and embrace His calling --wherever that might lead *Easier said than done. Baby steps, right? :-)
Somehow, I was so caught up, that I started this post fully confident that I had taken the BEST notes. The truth is, I didn't, and you'd probably just be better off watching the sermon yourself haha
I hope it speaks to you guys just as strongly, if not stronger, than it did to me. Praying for you! We're on this journey together, and it's a beautiful thing. Thanks for being along for the ride.
Peace, Love & Sunshine, Chels